Awww, bless you . Thank you - I certainly don't feel like a kind loving sister! Anyway; she had a
girl, weighing 6lb 11oz,the baby has no name yet and is a little heartbreaker! Just gorgeous!
Yesterday went ok, we were just hanging about from 10 til 4, and had a good laugh and lots of fun, which helped my sis and BIL. They only allow one person in
the theatre but let me in too, bless the staff. And gosh - the size of the needle they put into her back!!! I felt quite ill just seeing it! Glad I just sat at her head!
So I did my bit, held the baby, cried bucketfuls and bucketfuls of tears. Been ultra positive and OTT to Charlie about now being a big cousin cos he was the
youngest grandchild out of 4 now 5 (bless him - he's 8 and a half and this is gonna make him even more desperate for a sibling!), took tons of photos and
tried to stay sooooooooooo happy and excited, and went to tesco and bought new neice some baby stuff. As you do.
But today I could quite happily run in front of the Skeggy train!!! Feel really really really low and sad and emotional and my makeup is all over the place !!!
I should have had my own little girl celebrating her first birthday at the end of July, bless her.
Ho hum. Just a MAJOR attack of the nasty green eyed monster (big time!) Gonna visit with Charlie and take him and my neice (the baby's new big sister)out
of school at 2 (naughty!!!!!!) to go and see cutie-pie and hope that I won't cry or be a pain.
I shall be better later - I'll have to be!! My sis and BIL are just brill and really have been kind, its just that I want one!!!!
Love wendy xx
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I am completely in awe. I know I couldn't have done what you did - even for my sister.
I think it is only natural that you are going to start thinking all of the "if only" thoughts and maybe you have to set aside a little quiet time for
that. But you are such a strong lady that I'm sure you'll be OK and I am rally hoping that it is your turn soon.